Shredded to threads
Tears, here alone
Crying over what was
Looking at our notes
Reading everyline
Then the dreaded note of hate
Pain and sorrow
Tears, Suffering and Hate
Can't smile
Can't really laugh
Show it,
But Depression is here
Poevertyof the soul
No laughter
The soul speaks not
Sorrow
Saddness
No love felt
Nothing felt
It is all gone
Nothing left to hold onto
The ashes blew away
Looked way from and shunned...
SORROW
"Lost Her"
Sorrow felt here is just another sorrow
Pain is all I have
That is all I have felt for years
Why do I stay happy? When I should cry.
Why must I be happy?
Why does pain stay over me like my vampires?
My ghosts, my painful past.
This is a shitty life. Love comes and in a moment spreads it's light
wings and flys
It's been a little over an hour I think, could be two
Well it feels like days of pain
But like all pain tommorrow or the nest day I will recover.
The jester will recover
Pain exists in the mind and heart
"VAMPIRE"
Right now I am in the mood for the vampire. I need and want sorrow and pain, it is the only thing that will keep me going, I see the future in sorrow. I want evil to come in and darken my existance darken my life. The first time I actually want the vampire to come ion. DARKEN MY LIFE. DESTROY THE LIGHT. DEATH! The family Dracul is among us all. And the vamires of this world will not stop until sorrow, has touched everyone in a way to make them relize how precious life is, how saddness, and maddness, and happiness all travel together, and how sorrow is the one thing that iwll keep you down, and being down is good. The vampires of this world, are the only people who know what this world is really like, how everything can be corrupted, how the hate you hold, is just something that keeps you going. The hate the sorrow, fuels you keeps you going. The death is all that is left, when you die you shall truely feel the final sorrow, but you will be reborn, into something else, be it fueling the sun, or a snail, or another human, your energy will fuel more pain, and suffering. And that is al that is left, the pain, the sorrow, the hate. You shall feeel it, it will burn, your blood will run dry, and then in a moment you will cry, you will hate, yu will come back with the strength, that the vampire holds. You shall then be tricked, and beaten internally, you will fight to stay afloat, you will drown, and then be helped out of the water of sorrow, by a messanger, saying "I will help" Take his hand, take his help, don't let the help pass you by, or if you do, he shall never come back to help you again.
"DESTROY "
Death at midnight, death on the high tower
Fear of me
Death upon the seashore
Death of you!
Destruction of everything.
Destruction of you!
The life, the love, is all burned down
You are burned, I am burned
DEATH OF ME!
"SCARS "
Scars mentally and physically
Pain and hate felt
Dark, and dreay, gloom, destruction
Blood everywhere, the scars that will never heal
Hate that will never dissapear
Vanquish it all!
The Vampire is emerging through the scars
Blood is pouring
Stabbed and bloody is he
The Vampire kills, and leaves more scars
His eyes glisten in the sun, drinking the little blood left in me,
removing the rest of my humanity, making me; him, and him; me
Taking it all leaving nothing.
Becoming the Vampire
SCARS HERE!
"FIRE"
The fire is getting old
All that's left is the cinders
Slowly extingusihing leaving nothing
Left behind is the burnt remains
The ashes are cold, to late to be relit
The fire burns out
The elemential heat is gone
Nothing can bring the fire back, nothing to keep it going
The flame is no more , it is old and cold
It turned so dark, so gloomy, so cold
The fire used to burn, now I just yurn, for the fire
The Fire burns out...
"BLOOD"
Left bleeding, left dead
Beaten and bruised pain and suffering
Destruction, hate, rape of it all.
My blood, your blood
Pain and death, sorrow, hate. the gloomy, dark fog,
the stinch of it is sickening
The blood and fog are one
And the hate darkens the soul and the fog.
"VAMP"
The darkness is here.
It is me...
I am a being with no soul.
I feel alone.
I am truly alone.
The cold, the night is too long.
The vampire cloaks over me.
The darkness sets in, I feel saddness and fear.
I feel pain.
The soul is empty, it speaks not.
The vampire is alone.
I am the vampire.
The vamp.
Cracked Mirror
Love I am lost in my own thoughts, I have no idea what I think what I beleieve any more, I fear I may go mad, I have no idea what to do, I am an inch from insanity. I am walking the thin line, the walls are caving in. The mirror is cracked, it is a lovely disaster. Life, Love, and Liberty are all just made up to please, the happy ones. We all choice the dark road, in the end. We all sit alone, and we all think alone. We are all alone. Even if we are with someone, we are alone. We die alone. ALONE
NUTS
All, the key to the future is you must read it all. I have become enlightend...
I am racked with negative emotions, I find it hard to think about being the Jester, I can not, think about how it was, or anything happy. I feel like dying, but I can not because it is not the thing to do. I know I need to work throught his depression, and confusing problem, but I am the one people, talk to cheer up. I am the Jester, but who keeps the Jester from depression. No one, I may be doomed. I need a sign, or something, I have no idea, why I am typing or anything. I am completely confused, I am going mad in the sanctuary of my mind. I am walking the line entering the darkness, I am entering, the dark. Knowing nothing, see nothing, I am turning into the darkness, I am becoming nothing. I am part of it, it is part of me. The insanity is setting in.
We piece together are own jigsaw puzzle of words, and we dance, daning
around it saying "Hallelujah"
Praising a being that we say does everything and blames him for our own
problems. What? There is no god. Why? Because... Meaningness, Happiness,
Love, Hate, Life, Liberty, all come from Madness. We play the games,
made for children, and taunt the normal ones. We are all insane. We all
just want to disappear.
I see, we see the way you think and we are all going insane. I am what you would call "Chaos," I stand for anarchy, disorder, turmoil, dislocation, I am all of these and more. The confusion is what fuels me, I am becoming enightened on why madness is good, it keeps you the most normal, it prevents you from going mad, because you are already there. I just need to return to sane-hood which is the hardest. I fear nothing. You fear what you do not understand I am the one who knows all. I can slip away to madness, and return in the blink of an eye. I am enlightened, Happy, I am on top of the world.
I can see the future, madness, chaos, disorder, death, turnmoil, hate all are the end of us, we shall bring ourselves down. The human race shall be it's own end. We will start wars, friend against friend. Enemy against enmemy, everyone fighting everyone. Me against you, you against him, him against her. We all will be fighting and hating everything, madness is the way to escape the pain that we will feel. We will all hide, wait, kill everything willl be destroyed, the human race will disappear, that's the meaning, the fear. Is fear of the future, we don't want to know what is around the cornor. We all the human race will run away from ouselves, the world will be racked with nuclear distruction, we will kill each other with our own weapons. Blade in onehand, pistol in the other, shooting, and stabing. Killing the ones we love. Loving the ones we hate, then killing them to. Using drugs, and the virtual world, hoping it will be the messiah, hoping it will be the way, out. Wanting to just disappear. Racism sets in..., everyone, black against white, hispanic against white, oriential against white, white against white, black against black, everyone fending to fight off each other.
Then the crazys, nuts, lunatics, come in and kill the weak. Destroy spread there message. They become the strong, they are the strong, they turn the "nut houses" against the builders, they lock up the sane, and murders become the president, the king, they demand. That everyone wears a blood red bandana. They fight amongest themselves, they kill each other. The Farmers die, the crops die. Food runs low, on the few survivors of the war, the nuclear war. The few survivors, fight over who is king, and who is queen. The world is redused to close to 100 survivors, 1/2 being the nuts, the other half being the normal breed, with a slight maddness. They say, how about we take over the good part of the world, the islands the parts that were not affected by the war. They leave and they finally, after death, on death, finally take over the world. They become the Foundation, of the new world. This new world is full of the nuts, eventually a few normal people are born, ones that don't see the joy in madness, they are outcasts, they beome the scientist, the workers, they eventually take over the world, and the madness repeats itself, showing that the human race can never learn from it's mistakes, and that we are doomed to repeat the doom.